I will turn 35 in the next month and I have two children. My 6 year old girl(who got out of school at NOON today ) and my boy, he turned 3 in October. I have finished about 3/4 of a bachelor's degree and then had my son, I thought I would take a few months off! Well, I separated from my husband when my son was 8 months old and have not gone back.
The divorce was for the best. There is no way me and Daddy were going to make it for the long haul. In fact I am not quite sure exactly why I eloped with him to Elkton MD in the first place? Maybe because I was 26 and had credit card debt? No, that's not all, I loved him and thought I could help him. I did help him, in a way I suppose. He is remarrying in May and the woman is what I would consider to be much closer to what he actually needs then I was. We get along when we don't talk about money and the kids see their Father is what I am trying to say.
I go to night school and I am getting my massage license, hopefully some time in August.
I never knew that the people who were massaging you had to know so much, I thought it would be all "hands on" learning...I am not sure if that pun was intended or not.
Well, as I approach 35 I am thinking about the words of my therapist....to paraphrase; 35 is the onset of the mid-life crisis for women in which we will think "Do I want to be doing what I am doing now for the next 30 years" & "Do I want to continue on this road?"
The surprising thing is, she is right....I am thinking these things! This justifies her fee of $120/hr, (she only charges me $75). It's like I am having someone explain a really interesting novel to me and ( ta-da!) the novel is me. This woman knows so much...about me! I want to read the next chapter, even if it costs as much as a really fantastic haircut & color.
. . . just wait til you're 50, that's when the real mid-life crisis begins, depending on how long you live, of course. This could as easily be an end-of-life crisis I'm experiencing . . . WTF do I know? Or, perhaps the crises never end? Life is difficult. And that's okay.
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